Not so happy birthday.

Today is my birthday.. Pero parang ordinary day lang din naman ngayon. I went to work and go home. Super busy namin maghapon kasi mobile kami this week. Lahat ng patient na hindi pwedeng dalhin sa endoscopy pinupuntahan namin sa room para dun i-perform yung procedure. Kadalasan from ICU, OR, MICU, CVD basta lahat ng unable to transport. Nakakapagod din kasi we have to push our machines and other things. From third flr. To diff. Flrs. Tinapos na namin lahat ng case namin bago kami mag lunch kaya 3pm na kami nakapag lunch kanina.. So after duty I went home and sleep.. Tapos I just feel sad.. Hindi man lang niya ko gnreet, alam ko naman na hindi na kami at wala naman akong karapatan mag demand sa kanya.. Pero sana naman kahit ngayong araw lang na 'to kahit "happy birthday" lang.. Magkausap kami kagabi tapos nagalit siya na offend siya saken eh kasi ang harsh ko daw... Eh nagbibiro lang naman ako.. Nag sorry na ko ewan ko sa kanya. Aaarrrhhggjhh!!!! I shouldnt feel this way! Dapat hindi ako naapektuhan ng ganito! I hate it.. I miss him so much.. :( what a happy not so happy birthday it is.. Sana nga nakaprivate na lang pala yung birthday ko sa fb naiinis ako! Kasi wala lang feeling ko kasi nau-obliga ung mga tao na maging nice sau or make u feel special on ur day.. Parang hindi natural basta! Anyway, no one made me feel special today naman which I'm used to. I'm just here in my bed lying underneath my comforter.. Too cold to move and go out.. Maybe i should go back to sleep na lang para matapos na ang araw na ito.. Goodnight!