Monday, June 15, 2009

goodbye.. .

haiii..bakit kaya ganon..lagi na lang ngyayari skn toh..kung kelan gusto ko na yng isang tao..saka nagkakaron ng problema..kung kelan akala ko okay na lahat..hindi pala..haii sabi ko na nga ba eh..kung bakit kasi ganito ko eh..kung bakit kasi napakadali kong maniwala..kung bakit kasi hoping ako..kung bakit kasi hindi ako maxadong nakinig sa mga advice saken..eh di sana hindi ako nasasaktan ngaun..kung sana nung umpisa pa lang di ko na xa binigyan ng chance na makilala xa..eh di sana hindi aq nagkaka-ganito ngaun..bakit kasi mas inuna ko pa yung nararamdaman ko, na laging mali..akala ko kasi iba xa..na pag binigyan ko xa ng chance magiging okay lahat gaya ng sabi nya..haiii sabi nya pag nagkaron lang xa ng chance..hindi daw nya sasayangin un he’ll make me happy daw..oo naging happy naman ako..naalala ko yung mga time na yun..yung tipong maiisip ko lang xa napapangiti na ko..yung feeling na super saya mo kasi nandyan xa.. .sabi ko pa nun sa sarili ko..im ready na ult to fall in love..after a long time..etoh na..masaya na ko ulit..niloloko nga ko ng mga friends ko..kasi ang saya-saya ko daw,,sino daw ba yung nagpapasaya sken..
pero kahit na nung time na masaya ko..naisip ko din na "hanggang kailan ba ko magiging masaya.." lagi kong sinasabi kay god na sana..di na dumating yung time na pinaka ayaw ko..kaya lang..dumating pa din yung time na un..*sigh..parang kailan lang noh..ang saya saya ko..tapos ngaun..wala na xa..bakit ngaun ako ung nasasaktan.. .bakit ngayon ako nnman ung umiiyak..*sigh..i was asking a question..na alam ko naman yung sagot.. .kunsabagay ako din naman ung may kasalanan, kasi napakadali kong maniwala..akala ko kasi iba xa..haii para lang xang reincarnation ni prince.. kaya ngaun.. ako nanaman yung loser.. kasi ako yung naniwala @ umasa na magiging maayos ang lahat.. haii siguro ganyan talaga ang buhay.. .ayan tuloy napaka-bitter ko na ata ulet.. . sbi nga ng mga friend ko "eng-eng" daw aq sa LOVE puro kasi emosyon ang ginagawa ko...ok i must admit..mahina ko sa LOVE.. kaya sbi nga ng bhezzy ko "be ready" dahil di ko daw kayang makipag-sabayan sa iba.. dhil alam nya na etoh nga weakness ko..
*sigh..bakit ba kailangan mangyayari skn toh.. wala nman aqng gingawang masama..parang, ano ba.. wla na ba tlga kong karapatan maging happy? gusto ko lang naman maging msaya..@ magkaron ng isang taong mag-mamahal skn ng totoo..hindi yung puro pang-good lang.. .nakakasawa na talaga..parang de javu eh noh.. ganitong-ganito kasi yung ngyari samen ni prince.. haiii basta alam ko darating din yung time magiging happy din ako.. sorry ha..kasi ang emo ko.. i cant pretend na im happy.. .coz' this is what i really feel.. . but i know SOON i'll be okay..

its hard to say goodbye.. .
pero yan na lang talaga ang kaya kong gawin..

some would call me OA..but hell! this is me..


i asked god in my dreams..

"why did you have to create pain & hurt? why not all laughter & cheers? why do we have to cry? why aren't smiles painted in our faces?

God hold my hand and said

"my child..when your happy..you forget me..sometimes..i let you experience pain..for you to recognize me..remember, thru pain, im making you a fighter..the more you cry..the more you're hurt..the STRONGER you become.."

9 comments:

  1. awww... i love the quote at the bottom... puwede bang mahiram yang linya na yang minsan.... parang nag-teary eyes koh ahh.... kaya nga sabi ren... "when we are weak He is strong" ... hayz... para lang tayong madalas nakakarelate sa isa't isah... nde kaya best of friends tayo sa past life? lolz... hayz sis.. hmmm... ano bah situation koh... i dunno...yoko na intindihin... lagi kong inaaask si God pero nakukulitanz na atah saken... i hate d' feeling na i miss a person but dunno if he's feeling d' same way... sometimes i think he does... pero wala naman syang sinasabi... maybe namimiss-interpret koh lang.. or feelingera lang akoh... ayonz.... sis... you'll be fine... yeah hirap tlgah kapag usaping pag-ibig nah.. kakalocah noh... but for sure God has a reason for everythin'... darating den ang taong destined sau... pag dumating na sya eh for sure u guyz won't be always happy.. magkakaroon pa ren kayo nang mga challenges and everythin'... pero for sure if u guyz have God in the middle of 'ur relationship eh malalagpasan moh 'un... you'll have 'ur moment too...datz for sure... and God will give 'u the desires of ur heart in His right time... juz right him... ingatz lagi sis.. *hugz*... Godbless! -di

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  2. just trust Him i mean... typo error... ingatz sistah! =)

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  3. whaaaaaa sisssss :'(
    haiii parang gusto ko na nga lang muna mawala sa blogosphere..haii kya lang..pag naiisip ko xa naiiyak na lang aq..:/ bkt kaya kailangan mangyari skn toh..wla nman akong gnwang msama..d nman ako nanloloko ng tao..bkt ganon.. :'c

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  4. pain and suffering is just a tunnel you have to go through before u see the light. :)

    love,
    nobe

    www.deariago.com
    www.iamnobe.wordpress.com

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  5. sis if u think u need some rest and some time alone para makapag-heal eh go ahead... do d' things na makakatulong sau.... hayz... sana i can juz take d' pain for 'u para naman gumaan ang pakiramdam moh... well i had those moments na ren... na as in parang tumigil ang mundo koh... pero hey... nde nagrerevolve ang mundo moh sa kanyah.. minsan may mga events sa buhay naten... mga challenges... na we juz wanna keep askin' why? puro why?... hayz... i guess yeah u juz have to teach 'urself to let go and let God... you'll be fine sis... take good care of 'urself k... *hugz* Godbless! -di

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  6. thank you sa inyo ha.. .
    siguro kahit 1wk. lng muna..then
    promise balik din ako..
    and pagbalik ko, di na ko mag e-emote
    ulet..hehe haii salamat tlga sa inyo ha..
    mwah!!!

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  7. awww. sis. soo saad naman .. but! but! but! look at the bright side! we know god has his own plan for us. kaya alam ko. kung anu man ang nararamdaman mo ngayon~ trust me, may kapalit na saya yab sis! =]

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  8. aw..
    another girl hurt.
    hayzz.

    sis i pretty much understand what u wen thru.
    i went tru the same thing before..
    but now..im happy again.peo sabi mo nga..
    hndi rin magtatagal to..there has to be an end.

    if only i can comfort you..
    but it seems that i cant..like hug you or what.
    all i can give you is some words that would totally make you feel better..sana..

    do remember that pag nanyare ang mga ganito..
    just look at the bright side.
    always remember..that something better might come. yes, maybe..you think he is THE BEST. but im tellin you, you're just thinking bout dat..sa ngayon. Peo dadating ang panahon..na ang talgang BEST eh dadaan sa buhay.

    its not your fault..nor his.
    walang may kasalanan. it was...fate and destiny.
    And this happened because something else will happen.
    just pray..and sis, there has to be balance of things. so i hope u wont get mad at GOD giving you pain after those laughters.
    things just got to be balanced.

    again, i hope ull be fine na..and we are always here for you..
    tc..and goodluck.
    lovelots

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  9. whaaaaa sis kymmmm
    thanks ha.. =)
    i feel better na.. aun salamat
    mwah

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